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Dead by April.

Other than being a mediocre Swedish mallcore band, the title describes my current feelings. I am under a lot of stress due to schoolwork. Two exams next week, one academic presentation, two sets of languages to study as well as beginning a group project. I feel like I'm drowning under this mass of literature and paper and electronic material. Suffocating under the endless amount of work. I know I could've started some of this stuff earlier but I also know that I couldn't have. You can never regret anything you've done in the past if you're happy the way you are right now. Just not possible. I know I could've skipped a few meetings, a few nights of drinking, a few having-friends-over, a few blog sessions, a few I'll-do-nothing-else-than-just-sit-here sessions. But those have made me into what I am today, what I have to do today and what I will enjoy tomorrow. I know I can make it but the feeling of being dead by April will subside only when I've passed the two exams of personality sychology and basic mathematics and aced the presentation of the usage of  the five-factor model in military leadership. Then, I will be whole again and will be able to start thinking more forward than just the week ahead of me.

.the inevitable fall.