Sunday, March 13, 2011


Smile, your face lightens up.

I don't know if anything can be perfect but my life seems to be so at the moment. I'm living in a constant stream of happiness and it's getting better day by day. Looking back at what I've done and what I've felt, I can tell how I've been living my days in quicksand. Thinking that I must do things, trying to do things but never accomplishing anything, only sinking deeper into the sand. I have viewed myself as ink stains on paper as opposed to neat font on a typing program. Now, I feel complete somehow.

Sometimes it sickens me that I've let myself to this point. I've let myself into thinking about my life as a part of another person's life. I've let myself to think I'm engaged to something now. Someone relies on me, I rely on someone. Sometimes I feel like I've lost my independence. Whereas I have lost my independence to some extent, I can't help but to feel excessive amounts of joy. My life has had a meaning before, now it has two. Could be that this is the first time in my life when I've fallen in love.

"It's a reason to get up in the morning. It's a reason to lose weight, to fit in the red dress. It's a reason to smile. It makes tomorrow all right." -Sarah Goldfarm (Requiem For A Dream)

I have my reasons to get up in the morning and smile. Now I also have reasons to keep the smile on my face for the whole day, enjoy life as it is. I feel like I'm at the point of loss of words. The only thing I want to do is smile now.

.the wrong message could end you.


  1. Not funny as such... that's just my reaction face to happiness.

  2. Haha, alright. :D Hey, are you writing any blogs? I'd like to read them if you are. (:

  3. Oh, apparently you are, and I just became your constant reader!