That sure came out to be one long text. I need to write more about the Greek characters. Maybe they will turn up in my life when I'm abroad next year. I find it sort of sad that at the moment the dam blocking the stream of my thoughts is also blocking the genuine excitement I have towards my next year. I can't as excited as I could in another state of mind. I want to feel excited, to jump up and down and shout and cry tears of joy and laughter. But I simply can't at the moment. The innocent joy caused by the journey has been over-ruled by other thoughts and to put it simply, it sucks.
.i heard i was close to dying.